11:00pm

So, It's a 11:00pm pn a Saturday night and I'm home alone, searching the internet, and looking at clothes that I cannot afford!

People think when you enter into relationships every Saturday night is exciting and captivating....NOT!

Random

It's been a while since I've wrote about me and S...everything is going GREAT. Last month there was a lot of "tension" between us, mainly because I was feeling that 1 year itch and thinking about where me and him stood and where are things gonna go from here. But after we had a long drawn out discussion...everything worked out. And as someone who left me a comment advised, I'm just gonna enjoy the ride. I know I enjoy his presence and want him to be in my life, so I can relax!

For our 1 year anniversary we are heading to Miami! I'm very excited! This is our first vacay together! I'm hoping everything is gonna go ok!

I've convinced my cousin to start the year of the yes also. I'm convinced that it does work! I thank the year of the yes for making me open minded and giving S a chance...

Blockbuster Accounts and fire works?

So...me and S got a Blockbuster account together...sure its not a bank account or a credit card and he didn't cosign for that new VW Jetta that I've been lusting after, but its a start.

As we start to get closer and our relationship starts to progress, I can't but help to wonder if as a young 20 smoething should I be dating other people. Should I be seeing what DC has to offer...am I complete sure this is right and real...shouldn't there be fireworks or visions of him on a shiny white horse. Is this love? Is falling in love nothing like what we see in the movies?
In July me and him are suppose to visit my crazy family...I don't know if I'm ready for that. Are my reservations a sign that I'm not ready for this? He asks me about OUR kids and future and it freaks me out...I kinda need a bag to breathe in so I wont faint. A part of me is happy to be involved in a loving relationship...with someone I can spend great time with...but shouldn't there be fireworks?

Valentine's Day

This was the first time in a long time that I've had a Valentine.

I must admit, Valentine's Day is a little overrated.

Me and S decided to stay in and have dinner at home. He cooked a traditional Congolese meal and I made dessert. I whipped up some chocolate cupcakes and made my own vanilla frosting! We exchanged cards and little gifts we gotten each other and ate our food. We shared some loving, than it became late and we both had to be at work the next day so we went to bed.

As a single woman I yearned for a Valentine, but now that I have one I see why those with Valentines always said it is not that serious. For some girls, especially those in bootleg relationships who need Valentine's Day to feel like their partner loves or cares about them, it is important. However, for others, who are in committed and loving relationships, love is something that is shared everyday and February 14 is just another day.

Bad Friend or Good Girlfriend?

Well, Baltimore was great. Not much to do in Baltimore, but it was nice being away from home for a while and having a complete stranger make my bed and bring me fresh towels.

For years I was always the single friend. Now I'm starting to feel bad for telling my friends I'm hanging out with "S" tonight or not waving my hands in the air when the DJ yells out "Where my single ladies at." I fear becoming one of those girls who gets a man but loses her friends. I try to balance my friendships and relationship, but it seems that a lot of the time me and S plan in advance which makes little room for Saturday night calls from girlfriends asking if I wanna go to the club.

So, am I a good girlfriend or just a bad friend?

How do I balance the two? I'm new to this whole dating thing.

So, the holidays came and went. Christmas and New Year's Ever were both eventful and memorable.

Although me and S spent Christmas in two different places, we opened our gifts over the phone the night before Christmas. He got me an IPOD classic, my constant complaints of wanting to be ipod upgraded must have been heard, and I got him a Guess watch, Givenchy cologne, and Katt Williams's "Pimp Chronicles." It was so good to get off the plane and see him again.

It was sooo good to get off the plane and see him again. Eventhough I was only gone a week, it felt like forever.

I was excited about New Year's Eve. It was my first time EVER being with someone around this time and having someone special to kiss after the countdown. Me and him just went down to an Adam's Morgan (an area in DC filled with international bars and on most nights drunken college kids). We sat in a little lounge, danced to a few songs, kissed, and decided to head home around 12:45 or so (we both had to work New Year's Eve). It was nice being there with him...having someone to celebrate things like this with!

In a few weeks we are going to go on our first weekend trip. He's been dying to go see the aquarium in Baltimore, so we decided to make a weekend out of it.

It's crazy that I have someone like S in my life. For so long I was single and never imagined that the first guy in DC that I gave a serious chance to would turn out to be GREAT! S does have his flaws like his tendacy to reply "maybe" when I ask him to do something with me or his inability to pick up the phone at times when he's running late and not to mention his habit of only answering questions that he thinks deserves an answer...i.e. me: S are you tired? him: ***crickets, crickets*** Silence!!!! I hate that!!!! But above his flaws, he's caring, loving, a true provider, accepting, among other things. He moves me!

Randomness

I wrote him a poem. I don't know if I'm prepared to share it.

By the way, the play was great and we had a good night. The next day I cooked my first Turkey. I told my mother I was trying to get married...next thing I need to learn how to cook is Fufu and Cassava leaves!